Insecure Mind

I've been hiding in my comfort zone for too long.
The reason why I hide in there is because of the past that keeps haunting me even in my daily life basis.
I've been living as a servant to my insecure mind.
To my own disliking,  this insecure feelings keep haunting me until it affect my own personality.
People don't know how I live all this time
This is the impact you left me when you used to mock me in my childhood
The-so-called 'My Elementary School friends'
The-so-called 'My Junior High School friends'
The-so-called 'My Senior High School friends'
Are you all happy now?
That you've succeeded messing my life
Turn me into right now, choosing carefully people who might become my friends
You used your childish attitude excuses to mock me from behind
Even to people I didn't know
Are you happy that you might have broken me beyond repair?
Why I said you have broken me beyond repair?
Because I think me, myself right now couldn't be fixed to how my personality used to be
There's no bubbly personality in me
There's no happy side within me (except when i'm fangirling to something that I like)
I feel like I couldn't be much happier if I am around someone
That supposed to be my happy injection
I feel like I suppressed my feelings until I don't know if I can express well my own opinion in the future
I don't know anymore if this is what I feel or just myself forcing to be this happy
Now it's time for myself to come out from my comfort zone
I don't know will it really works...?


- just a piece of words from me, Irene-